20110723

This Special hEart

Wasn't it was so nice and wonderful if i can express those feeling by chance . sometimes it would be hard to kept our heart save instead of touching other heart . 

i were used to be in love . as for me , i always be serious with who ever that became my girl . about four years ago i were being with this one wonderful girl which is came into my life and give my life happens once more . it is like i was reborn . about 3 years we , together live happy life . Unfortunately , things went badly before its just started . without realise , come one boy with a well status . Maybe some kind sort of a family that rich . and then this girl goes to him without answering my ask . what can i do . i just a simple boy coming from simple family . there is no used chasing a diamond that find a new user . and then , my effort in believing and faithful in her became useless .

after about 1 year , i still can forget about this girl from the back there . i register to this cozy islamic college . i started to find peaceful here , day by day , the more i try to forget, the more i will remember past memory . then come this miracle . a girl . i look really forward to know her so badly . what can i do . compared to her , i far more different in state of world . and since then i just kept my golden feeling in this golden heart of mine . without realising, the girl also kept the same feeling at me . and for one year we had been together since then . but thing also not went really right . and this is totally my fault . my effort for her is totally less . but i looking forward for only this girl who is really waiting for me too .

for me . when i became father or a husband or a boy friend , i will try to give my very best and also i willing to do what ever she told and i always by her side when ever she need me .

20110716

empty life

hari ni baru balik jogathon dari mimpi.. :p tapi siyesly.. xde nak wat pape ouh.. boring gilaa ah ! >.<
eleh.. padahal ade je kerje nak wat.. bertimbun lagi tuh.. check leklok list-to-do caien oi~

since today is sunday.. rase cam harini x elok nak wat kerje2 .. kalu nak wat activity sonok ah... jalan2 ka.. men bola ka.. dota-ing ka.. spend time ngan bnde2 yg x berpekdah but menghiburkan hati.. but after all.. len kali kalu nak free time utk sume nieh.. arrange lah time betui2.. sbelum hari sabtu menjelang tiba.. make sure all work done and xde kerje dah nak dibuat.. baru ah besh .. nant nak bersosial x pkir dah sal sume nieh.. ye dok..

aq ade mcm2 list.. "list-to-do.." ade 2.. jangka pnjang and pendek . kalu yg pnjang mcm lebih kpda mencabar sikit.. :p "10-thing-i-like-bout-her".. "my-tips".. and others.. tpi someday i will expose it to this "laman sesawang"..

skung ni tgah duk rendam bilik ayaq ngan sabun and cloroxxx.. jap g nak sental abih sume daki2.. buweeekkk~ slamat ah ade zape and awey kat bilik nieh.. buleh tolong2.. ye dok =)

safwang duk tacink2 ngan dak2 bilik dy.. haih.. x cta pun kat aku an.. Syeyrraam nieh.. pape pun.. keep cool.. anda mampu mngubah segalanya.. =') kalu x leh handle calling aku maih.. calling pak tie ke.. biar paktie bakar skit.. :p chill bro~ nant smpai mase just luahkan yg terpendam jgn tunggu smpai meletop .. ;)

20110714

Diary Khamis

aduh !! sakit bahuu dowh~ >.<' kan best kalu ade org urutkan .. hehe.. btw.. sonok aku tgk Tap Zoo aku dah meluas.. hehe.. safwan plak dah smngat update blog skung.. org suh yer ?? =p aku ? still lagi dlm alam persekolahan kolej akuh.. :)

makin active berpesatuan.. lagi2 ngan persada nieh.. doa aku kan tuhan agar dapat sponsor bbyk.. dapat lah pergi trip memane.. dinner ke.. ape ke.. =) 20% weyh share.. :p

harini aku baru abes meeting ngan Ustaz dari "Tanyelah Ustaz" yg siaran kat tv tuh.. abes nye pkul 12.00 =.='.. x nak lame plak kan.. duhh ! tapi xpe lah.. as long as input yg dapat byk.. =)

kelas hari ni plak mcm best sikit.. hari khamis.. ade midterm.. pnyelah stadoo smpai pkul 3 smlm.. masuk midterm tadi mcm nak nanges pun ade.. nak tergelak pon ade.. haish.. yg x leh blaa tuh.. dah ah siap same2 ngan zape ngan paiz and daam.. kompem puan dah syak kitowng tiru pnyelah.. naseb lah jawapan x same.. (mcm mane aku tau jwpan x same :p ) but i did my best ;)

nak plak kelas HCI aq lecturer baru dari UNISEL.. best gilaa.. dapat plak blajar Adobe FL .. evethough aku ckap kat lecturer tersebut aku tatau pape :p

English Presentation postpone lagi ? aaaa~ dah penat aku prepare setiap minggu camni.. tapi x pe lah.. org ckap training/exercise make perfect.. (ape kne mngene =.=')

and last skali mcm biase.. honor to u.. i do, i do like to see you smile ;) and happy .. i feel ashamed when i make u cried before and disapoint you enough.. and this will not happen again next time i try my best..

20110707

Untuk Ape BERSIH ni ??

yeyy ! akhirnye.. job pun dah siap.. duit pun masuk.. (bkan PTPTN, harap malum)
skung maaase cuti.. =) balik ni bawak kete.. since sticker dah smpai.. heheh.. skung ni sempat agi update kjap.. smntara tunggu safwan g antar bob dulu..

skung ni mcm2 cta kite dgar.. politik itu , politik ini.. mcm aku.. aku bkan org yg active sgt dlm politik2 nieh.. butaku tau mane yg betul n mane yg salah.. bg aku... dlm nak luahkan sesuatu yg berkaitan politik ni.. make sure kite ade pengetahuan yg kukuh dan jgak bukti kalu nak ckap yg mcm2 psal politik..

sape ckap xperlu dlm berpolitik nieh ?? meh sini jumpe aku.. even zaman nabi dulu pun ade politik dimana ketika dlm process pemilihan khilafah selepas kewafatan nabi.. kaji semula.. kaji leklok.. lagi satu.. sbb kita perlu berpolitik ini adalah utk memilih pemimpin kita.. bkan kah kita telah berIKRAR dlm ikrar rukun negara..


KEPERCAYAAN KEPADA TUHAN
KESETIAAN KEPADA RAJA DAN NEGARA
KELUHURAN PERLEMBAGAAN
KEDAULATAN UNDANG-UNDANG
KESOPANAN DAN KESUSILAAN

Highlight sikit kesetiaan kpd raja dan negara tuh.. dah name pun dok kat Malaysia.. mcm mane pun.. kite kne patuh pada undang2 yg telah digubal oleh para raja kite.. Malaysia sbgai satu negara berDEMOKRASI pun kite kne ikut jgak.. deyyy ! kasi paham sendiri lah.. KAllU ini mcm tara paham, susah lah sama kami.. luu oLang yg tiedak berpolitik, susah maa sama waa~

cerite plak sal BERSIH ni.. org duk ckap x elok.. x bleh lah.. ape plak ?? sape ckap x leh.. even YDP pun suh wat kat stadium bermakna YDP membenar kan.. OBjektif utama dlm BERSIH kita kne paham.. bkan utk membuat rusuhan atau kezaliman pada yg lain.. tapi utk menyuarakan ketidakpuashatian kepada politik negara dimana para pemimpin yg memerintah tidak menjalankan tanggungjawab dgn amanah.. 

ade jgak yg berpndapat bersih ini x elok sbb ade yg bakar2 itu.. curi2 itu ini ketika sedang mmbuat perhimpunan.. ada yg pkai baju bersih kat FB duk maki2 org2 politik.. ok.. camni! terapkan dlm hati diri masing2 bahawa yg pergi perhimpunan itu, bkan sume yg betul2 dgn niat utk mempertahankan BERSIH dan lain2.. ada jgak yg masih x paham ape BERSIH ni sebenarnye .. tapi ade jgak yg dtg sbb SUKA2.. ad yg dtg utk amik kesempatan.. sbb itu jadi perkara yg bkan2 .. Think wisely ~

tapi papepun.. jgn sekali kali men lepas je kat mane2 social network mcm facebook ke ape ke.. luahkan yg bkan2.. kaji dulu.. amik pendapat org len.. paham pemerintahan negara dahulu.. yg penting hubungan dgn tuhan jgn lupa.. aq post bnde2 camni bkan nak mnyokong pihak BERSIH or Politik.. tapi aq akan memihak pada mana pihak yg betul2 utamakn rakyat dan pemerintahan dan mnjalankan tanggungjawab dgn amanah.. baru lah negara akan bertambah maju.. smpai bile nak duduk kat bawah ketiak negara laen.. renung2kan.. think wisely before act.. insyaAllah agar aman dunia ini dgn pasti melalui izin Allah.. amin~

20110704

L4U

how am i suppose to wait for you if u want to disapoint me ?  come on . u know how i felt about you . when i said i like this and that about other girl, u think im really meant it ? i always have faith in you that u will come back to me . but when im trying , not a single chance u gave back at me . like i said , i gonna wait for you . and i keep my word . if im ready to accept who you are , why shudnt you do the same . after we broke up , i feel very lonely . everyday everytime i thinkin bout you.. and i try to txt you.. but u seem dont like to be txt with me . yes, i dont know how you feel exactly . i like everybody but i do love you . and not everbody get my love like u . please , u can make the decision . im very happy when u said you afraid to lose me but you dont want other girl to replace ur place . the truth is, i also felt the same . i never faithfully being with other girl but with you , i do . i always wait for ur answer everytime . until now , my heart didnt changed how i felt about you . before its too late , we have to move on.. go with the flow . but its never too late..

Sincerely by.
Caien

Witness on the Door

 here comes holiday dat we waitin for.. :') happy holiday guys.. ;)

bercakap sal HOLIDAY.. yeah.. mcm biase.. aq jelah yg kompem2 akn pulang pling lewat.. if not, aq lah yg pling awal.. tapi nak wat camne.. dah ni mmg prangai i.. yeah ! \m/ bhahah ! bkan ape.. sonok jgak mencapap kat KUIS ni bile student ramai xdeh.. mcm tyme aq asasi dulu.. hehe.. dulu x tdo kot.. nak plak line KUIS laju nak MAM.. ape lagi MUATTURUN lah bbyk.. <3 !

okay2.. for today thingy things.. aq naek basikal antic hakim pergi naek atas beli brg utk masak mlm nieh.. dah mcm mak pergi pasar plak akuh nie -__-' tp nak wat camne.. dah tuh je kenderaan yg ade.. tapi sonok jgak.. terbAkor jgak lah lemak harini.. ;)

pas dah abes masak mkan sume.. ape lagi.. online ah plak.. :p aq safwan ngan bob.. mmg mood2 tgah duk mngacau org kat fb.. abes sume org kne tadi.. besh2.. hehe.. nak plak mama call.. sudah ~ then mama tny.. "bile nak balik." then i jawab "owg balik esok ma kalu kerje dah siap".. then mama kate okey.. janji balik.. jgn x balik.. ;) duk men fb.. mmg asyik teringat psal U.. aduss. ade x care nak lupekan u.. dapat lupekan sekejap pun jadilah.. mgkin nie tahap rindu gaban kot.. tapi papepun.. u must go with the flow syahir .. =)


You won't try to save me!
You just want to hurt me and leave me desperate!

Brand new LIFE

thanx Teardrops from my eyes..
this entry really give me a lot of jealous and of cos give me courages a lot..
“Love is someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting they won’t”."my boyfriend is my best friend"
i happy for ur relationship and of cos u and urs is a great sweet couple.. ;)
wish u last longer until death.. wishing me too =) 

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20110703

Good Person

im now feels so uneasy rite now.. tatau nak wat keputusan camne.. but some how.. i still have faith in you and im stilll gonna hold on.. and im still gonna wait.. its okay if you come to found another person better than me.. and i hope so.. but if that person if me.. i will do as best as i could..

last 2 weekend. mcm biase lah.. aku msg ngan farah (bkan name sbnar) .. dy ade lh cte kat aku mcm2.. salah satu cte yg bule kate interesting jgak lah ialah story tntang how girl feel sume tuh.. aq pun korek ah mcm2.. hehe =p tapi semenjak aku knal farah ni , ape yg aku tau kat farah ni , she really a hot girl.. also cute.. kawaii sume tu lah~ but that doesnt really concern me but the most interesting part is her kindness.. seriously~ tyme nie aku ngan dy mmg x pernah tgk mke lagi.. facebook pun x add agih.. tyme just kenal2 melalui phone.. asal nye si farah ni penah dtg skolah aq dulu ade program.. so aku sempat knal2 cam tu  jelah.. just ade no telephone and name.. tau2 dy msg tny betul x ni syahir~

she really give me boost up when she kind.. im so helpless when she kind and there is something in this girl dat great.. really good.. about last 4 or 5 weeks.. aku msg dy cm biase.. tny sume tu sume nieh.. tbe2 dy x reply.. time tu aq txt pagi.. then ptg tu dy baru reply.. eh2, bkan reply but straight call.. dy ckap "wehh.. soryyy u, i ade kerje tadi.. sory sgt2.. " aku ckap ape.. no need for a big apology but its okay.. aku bkan nye ape.. x kesah pun.. then satu hari ni plak.. turn aku plak busy.. dy ag bg satu msg.. then aq x reply ade lah dekat mlm jgak aku x reply.. cos aq ade byk kerje tyme tu.. hp plak silent.. check2 ade lah dekat 14 miscall n msg ade 5.. check2, sume dari farah.. siyes aq serbe slah tyme tu.. then aq pun call lah nak jage hati.. call2 aplogy sume dy ckap "eh2.. xkesah lah.. if u busy , its okay.. i paham.. ;) " sore dy tyme tu pun happy jgak..

what more give me a boost up is evertime when she txt me she will said first "syahir, busy x nie ? kalu x busy i nk chat.." hm ~ nak ckap ape lg.. siyes ly mmg aku pun tatau nak ckap camne farah nie.. she really a great person.. aq pun serba slah lah kalu x jage hati dy leklok..

another thing is, one day aku abes kredit.. ketika tgah txt dy.. tau2 aq dah kne topup dah.. tny bkan men tny baru dy ngaku dy yg topupkan.. aq pun ape lagi, lagi ah rase serbe slah.. aq ckap nant aq bayar balik.. dy ckap xpe lah.. kite pun dah mcm best frend kan.. so its okay.. aq penah pesan kat dy.. eevrytime come prayer time.. aq mest msg dy.. tanye.. dah solat belum  nieh ?? hehe.. saje xde point lain nak msg.. then now.. terbalik plak.. farah nie lah yg slalu msg and anye sume2 tuh.. kkdg dy ade gak luah isi hati dy.. kisah hidup dy.. but for now.. all i know and i understand about "she" is more than enough.. maybe she is not perfect.. but i always know she is perfect when she is kind..

"When a person try to be kind first , the person will repay same kindness or more than desire "

MOOD

lame x post entry . sory . :)
btw now im in the week of holiday.. wahhh! bkan men sonok agih yer.. hehe.. of kos lah.. cuti ade lah dimana hidupku yg dah busy nie ni jadi smkin busy bile cuti.. so who cares.. =p now im at ostel.. maybe tomorrow will be throw back amPunk.. yesterday bright evening.. kitowng gi mancing kot. hehe.. kat kolam Sea Lion kat Klang nuh.. plan nak balik mlm tuh jgak.. tp tau2.. dapat ikan sikit but still syukur.. dari xdak.. so balik tuh lewat then dah kompem2 x leh masuk kawasan ostel dah sbb gate dah kunci.. ;) so ape lagi.. pi pekena char kue teow lah.. hehehe.. then balik umah razeen tidoq kat umah dy.. ni kali ke 3 aq tdoq umah dy.. =) tgk kucing2 razin ade 8 ekoq dah.. sume gebu2.. :o rindu plak kat kucing akuh.. waaa !

slalu nye balik mancing mest gi serbu kedai ikan bakaq suh abg kedai tuh bakar kan.. mcm biase aq mest order CARROT SUSU.. aq bkan penggemar carrot suusu but demi kebaikan and kesihatan im free willing to do it ;)
first2 dulu si aafan tuh dapat ikan besaq kot.. kat kemensah bakang Zzoo tuh.. kitowng ajak ah g kedai ikan bakar mlm tuh reramai..

 X nak makan ikan bakar but nak carrot susu 3.. :p

balik dari umah razen dlm pkul 8 - 9 pagi bertolak pulang ke ostel.. then tbe masenye mnghantar awe ngan lukmang balik plak.. depa pie BTS and abg lukmang pickup them there.. so skrng dah smpai lah kot.. :) aq je yg masih mencari ketenangan kat sini.. ntah bile nak tenang daa -__- so nak taknak, esok aku kne balik jgak.. sbb mcm2 nak wat..member aq dah dekat 4 - 5 dh setting nak hg out.. so aq x nak hampakan mereka.. bile lagi nak jumpe kalu bkan time cuti kan.. ;) Peyi, Zaher, Farah, Musfirah, Quraisya, Azmeer, Fakar, Ain and Farzana.. please wait for me <3 !
please ignore je picture2 yg dibawah. xde kne mngene :p

 nmpak sgt x pokes dlm kelas -___-



i bought this immediately when i found one . <3 ! for you ~

20110519

word come from heaven

dah jauh aku lari.. mngapa aku x lihat blkng kembali.. mngapa aku leka dgn sume ni.. sungguh zalim perasaan ini jika dikatakan menipu dalam perasaan.. what been said by her is totally right and what i cant even know about this mistake?? but what is gone let it be.. focusing what gonna happen next if ur dunt realise earlier.. thank.. tenkiu very much.. you were like 2nd mother to me.. i never had an adviced like that before.. and this i promised you.. i will simply do my best and never let you down again.. i know you have faith in me.. the next time we meet.. i will be granted a smile at your face.. onestly.. believe me.. i keep ur word and faith in my heart forever.. and thanx for give me strength again.. tenkiu very much.. if the spirit of mine is just 100% now it becoming more from before..

"Kite ni anak laki.. tak boleh nak nak bg harapan yg tinggi pada anak dara orang.. ingat tu~ "

thanx God for giving me another chances ='(

20110518

Quotes i 've dreaming to said it to you..

" Love is always patient and kind
it is never jealous.
love is never boastful or conceited.
it is never rude or selfish.
it does not take offense and is not resentful.
it takes no pleasure on other people's sins but delights in the truth.
it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes. "

Please Reach Me

its now or never..
sometimes this feeling will hurt you deeply too much without realise of what of the consequences..
but for me.. i leave all that behind and started to concentrate on what i aiming for.. no more loitering.. no more sosialising.. live ur happy live like always and busy like always you do..

for the first time.. i fell for this girl.. which is the same age of me.. but different class.. i think i got one feeling that i promised to myself that would never betrayed my feeling and also her's feelin as well.. i keep on struggling.. focusing on she.. and just she.. this is no ordinary feelin but it is a miracle cos it would ever happened to me.. and yet the girl self running away with other guy.. yah.. of course.. its totally my fault.. i really careless.. believed me. i can't forget what we have been trough until right now..

for the second girl, i deeply hurt you so much.. yes i know it.. i left you with out sayin a single word.. im very sellfish.. yet you were kind enough for me.. and i cant accepted it.. im really2 sorrry.. you were such a kind girl.. its hard to believed you re okay and doing fine when the day i left you without sayin anyting.. and again im sorry.. maybe now its my punishment.. please forgive me.. yes.. i dont know what are those feelin of girl. but thrust me.. i always can feel those hurt feelin from yours..

last and forever.. i dont know what to say.. but the truth is.. when this feelin of mind and my heart come to open again to another girl.. maybe this is just my feelin.. but its not ! its really happen.. all day night this evil feelin always disturbing my peace.. for what ? for remembering you every second of time.. When im sick, The doctor said i should live life normally, as best as i could. i didn't want anybody to be weird around me. and this faith come to me. she has faith in me. she makes me want to be different. Better. i was gatting along fine, i accepted it.. my life.. and then you happened !! i do not need a reason to be angry with God. am i scared to death ? no. but im scares of not being with you.. you know what i figured out ? Maybe God has a bigger plan for me than i had for myself. Like this journey never ends. Like, you were sent to me because im sick. to help through all this. and yet.. you're my angel.

20110511

A Man Boy - form 3

"when youre in the middle of something and havin a problems of choosing ways.. close youre eyes and hear your heart voice"

Registration Day
kalu x silap dalam tahun 2006 aq masuk alam persekolahan baru for tingkatan 4..

syapik Gai : fulamak.. cantik baju kuning ko.. (baju kuning = baju pngawas)
syahir : uh?! hehe.. alah ko.. sepak kang.. ko punye pon cantik jgak.. tapi kne pkai kasut kulit itam ke.. siyesly??
syapik gai : haih~ mestilah.. kan dah termaktub dalam surat perlantikan hari tuh.. ko x bace betul2 ke..
syahir : hm~ ye lah tuh.. bulan depan lah jawabnye aq beli.. :p

mlm tuh macam biase.. after mkn mlm kat dewan makan.. outfit biase aku mcm biase lah.. pekene baju melayu ngan kain.. sebb tu compulsory for aspura.. time tu baju melayu aq kaler kuning2 oren camtu lah.. agak bersilau kalu masuk musolla.. musolla aq pon dah x mcm surau ghupenye.. ala2 masjid ade lah.. besaq giler.. tatau lah pngetua expect nak gain student reramai kot.. ntahlah -__-

abes je smyg maghrib aq dah start amik al quran then amik port biase kat hujung and kat bucu kiri musolla tuh.. sbb situ buleh menyandar and pintu keluar pon dekat.. xde ah malu sgt nak kuar bile ade hal.. lagi pon kat situ view dy cantik.. boleh nampak pemandangan DEPAN and BELAKANG.. everytime and everyday after solat maghrib.. mest kne bkak tirai belakang (pemisah antara ruang solat muslimin and muslimat) sbb time nie program bace alquran.. depend lah kepada exco dakwah.. dy nak suh bace surah ape.. tapi selalunye x lari dari surah2 x pnjng lah.. sebab takut terlebih mase langgar waktu solat isyak pulak kang..

time nie.. sonok lah dak2 dari form 2 hingga form 5 dok melilau mata memandang ke arah belkang musolla.. tgk ape.. tgk ape lagi.. tgk aweks2 yg tgah khusyuk bace alquran kat blkng tu lah.. -_- ok.. dah ckop.. sampai situ je.. further information about us.. xleh gtau.. biarlah rahsia.. haa.. nak jadi cte nye.. time nie lah first time dak2 skul tu ramai knal akuh.. aduss.. feymes agih.. sbb time nie aq nak kuar follow kenkawan aku kuar jgak.. saje bajet nak g amik wuduk.. dgn x semena mena dah jadi perhatian.. ahaha..

esok tu kat skolah mcm biase.. masuk kelas yg telah ditetapkan.. tau2.. aq same kelas agih ngan si beliau.. siape?? siape agi.. si Farzana ni lah.. kelas 3Zuhud.. rupenye mmg kelas kekal sama mcm kelas tahun lepas.. ahaha.. xpelah.. lagi bagus.. xde lah nak segan sgt masuk kelas len.. then bermula lah hari bsing same mcm tahun lepas pnye kelas.. sape lagi tukang huru hara kalu bkan si "Tweety tuh"..

aq teruskan kehidupan aku mcm biase.. lagi2 nak mghadapi PMR pada tahun ni.. subject yg aq pgg dlm tgn dah kompem2 ah BM, Math, KHB, PI, GeoGraphi, and Science.. sejarah, Arab, and English x confident dapat score.. hehe.. so aq dah ade 6 A's kat situ.. amcam?? terer x?? buwekkk!! ahaha.. tapi persaingan dalam kelas aku makin hari makin sengit.. mgkin semua pelajar start to realise the important of this exam.. so let it be.. berjaya sesame.. gagal pon sesame..

tahun ni aq berjaya masuk perlawanan takraw and menang smpai peringkat daerah.. daerah je.. then kne reject sebb x power.. ahah.. same lah mcm naseb aku time kat perak dulu.. tu pon selamat dapat pergi follow peringkat kebangsaan sebb aku jadi sidang redaksi sekolah.. ahaha.. dulu siyes aku power.. and active giler dalam sukan2 nie.. tapi day by day.. makan pon kuat.. kerje pon mlas.. mane x naek Encik L kat dalam bdan.. its okay.. i need to de extra and extra.. dun worie.. and be glad..

zaman persekolahan time nie.. mmg dibenarkan pelajar utk outing tapi x leh lebih dari pukul 6.. kalu x kne denda or penalti.. so kitowng pon ape lagi.. setiap hari sabtu kompem kuar punyer.. g tibai CC murah kat Bandar Salak tuh.. then pergi nilai.. shoping2.. tu je lah keje kami.. then balik dalam pukul 4 lebih takut x sempat sampai..

pejam celik~ dah sampai waktu peperiksaan percubaan.. so sume org sibuk struggle bermati matian smpai muntah hijau.. ahah.. then mcm biase.. nak gain dana.. pngwas rakan sebaya PRS kompem wat "Request" sejenis penghataran bnde and disertakan dgn ucapan dari pemberi kepda penerima.. so time tu mmg x expect lah ade org nak bagi.. sbb time tu, kompem2 ah player yg dapat.. player nie seorang budak kelas aku name faiz.. org panggil dy jambu.. du nie mcm pendek2 sikit.. senyum ade lesung pipit.. puteh2 org nye.. buleh kate kiut jgak lah.. tapi persepsi prmpan jelah.. kalu kitowng.. anggap si jambuni mcm disaster jeh. :p then.. mcm biase lah.. kompem2 mest dy byk dapat request..

suatu hari ini.. pada hari isnin.. and peperiksaan percubaan pada hari rabu.. hari isnin tu start diedarkan "request" yg telah di beli oleh pemberi.. then berterabur lah ahli PRS singgah kelas ke kelas utk mngedarkan request tersebut.. sape dapat2.. dapat lah.. yg x dapat.. wat2 senyap dah lah.. :p then smpai giliran ahli prs smpai kelas aq.. then dy panggil.. Faiqah Farhani~ Nasiha~ Farahin~ Faiz~ Syafiq~ Hikmal~ Khairul Ikhwan~ Faiz~ then tbe2 senyap.. dah2.. yg tu jelah.. nak tak nak.. aq x dapat.. hehe.. mmg aq dah agak dah.. xpe lah.. bkan expect pon.. ;) then yg pling byk fafa.. sbb dy dapat 4.. faiz dapat 2 jeh.. ahah! then still dy wat mke macho.. haha.. abes persekolahan.. ade sorang budak PRS ni panggil aku :

PRS : weh2!!.. tunggu jap.. syahir kan?? (smbil menuding jari kearah aku)
syahir : uh?! eh2~ aah~ nape.. ade pape ke..?
 PRS : fuh! nseb bek x balik agih .. jap2..

then dy berlari masuk dlm bilik gerakan PRS the keluar semua bawak bakul then datg kearah aku

PRS : ni haa~ request ko.. ade tercicir tadi.. lupe nak suh budak antar tadi.. maaf yer..
syahir : uh~ oh.. terima kasih.. (skema gile "terima kasih")
Twetty : weh.. syahir.. gile ah.. dapat request jgak lah siot.. sape bagi.. tgk lah..
syahir : uh?? nant2 lah.. nant kat dorm aq bkak lah..

nak x nak.. dapat jgak aq request for the first time..bkan satu bkan 2 tapi tiga.. ahaha.. lagi skali aku poyo~ -__- gomenesai~ sampai kat bilik aq cek lah request2 ni.. yg first skali tertulis

"do you best for PMR and forget me not.. =) friends - Fafa"

second one :
"give it all the best.. never give up.. caiyok2!! -Dak F2"

LAst one : 
"always remember what u are in this world.. i always support you from behind and wish me luck too -Farz =)"

after i rad all those request.. i dont why.. i feel something boost me up.. my friend always cheering me up back here and have faith in me also.. lastly, tbe hari exam PMR.. mcm biase.. siap sedia kat kantin pukul 8.. sebb pukul 8.30 nak masuk dah.. pukul 9 start paper.. day by day.. aku lalui hidup aku dgn study spnjg mase.. x hiraukan org ajak main ke ape ke.. dalam kelas aq g cari master dlm subject yg aq x power.. and aq try blajar ngan member aq yg power sikit.. and they all also doing the same.. and i really love this studying situation this time.. really do love.. i finished my PMR exam and straight back going home.. for holiday.. ;) when i arrived home i checked my bag and found this letter with pink cover. disitu tertulis 

"from - Farz"(i wonder when she put it in my bag -__-)

20110509

A Man Boy - form 2

"you really do give me strength. tenkiu. thank you very very much. now i can live again."

teingat zaman dulu~ which time skolah dulu2.. ntah camne ntah aq leh jadi pngawas.. here some conversation me with Sir Din Abbas dimana sbgai guru pngawas skolah..  

me : Sir, nape sy dipilih pulak sir?
sir Din : Bukan sy yg pilih awk, tapi takdir tuhan yg memilih awk.. 
Me : erk! tapi.. sy bkan nak pon sir.. tolak buleh?? 
sir Din : lah.. xkan lah awk nak lari.. tanggungjawab kecil je nieh.. persediaan bg menghadapi masa depan kelak lagi berat tanggjawab dari ini.
Me : ada x cara len sy nak tolak??
Sir din : kami, guru2, sejak dari kamu tingkatan dua lagi kami sudah menilai tatasusila kamu.. dan kami sume bersetuju utk lantik awak..

then ntah mcm mane ntah sambungan nye.. aq pon x ingat dah.. tapi tau2.. masuk form 4 dah jadi pngwas dah.. -__- tapi time tu ntah camne ntah... jadi feymes tetibe..asalnye aq nie seorang student yg baru saje berpindah dari skolah di Bagan Datoh, Perak. dari situ aq dapat no 2 dalam kelas tingkatan satu n from kelas no1.. pndai x pndai x? (poyo-__-) xde lah.. kire buleh berbangge lah jgak dari skrg.. ntah mkan otak udang byk sgt kot sampai x leh nak score bnde yg remeh temeh.. 

ops! sori2.. back to the line.. then dapat result gempak dari skul kat perak tu then mama dicide to transfer me from there to skulah yg berdekatan dgn ampang.. mintak punye mohon punye mintak.. dapat lah skolah kat Bandar Baru Slak TInggi.. then bermula lah alam persekolahan aku..

aq knal ramai kawan yg ade kat skolah tu.. first skali aku kwn ngan abg Razi.. dy nie baik gila.. rupa ade.. pndai pon pndai.. Yg terkejutnye.. beliau merupakan Ketua Kepada asrama putera.. kire president lah tuh..thne kwn lah ngan dy.. tapi kejap je.. then aq knal ngan dak2 same form yg same kelas ngan aku..

secara x langsung nye aq masuk skolah pagi esok ke kelas yg ditetapkan.. then dapat kelas no 2.. buleh tahan lah kan.. :p then ade lah budak kelas yg ramai aku x knal.. tp yg aq tau time tu bdak pling kecoh ske kaco pmpn name dy khairul ikhwan.. name gelaran "tweetty" sbb mulut dy kecik gila.. and he also adorable.. dy je yg x mengAdorable kan diri..-__- then selain tuh pmpn pertama yg tegur aku name dy Faiqah Farhani name panggilan "Fafa".. sumpah bdak sorang nie kiut-miut.. kiut dalam sklah kalu nak dibandingkan.. memandang kan meje aku bersebelahn ngan dy then dy tegur

Fafa : "weh.. name aku fafa.. name ko syahir eh.. " 
Syahir : "uh?! aah~ mane ko tau..?"
Fafa : "biase lah.. twetty dah heboh awal2 dah.. ckap ade bdak baru name syahir masuk kelas kite.. then ni haa.. ade bdak nak knal ngan ko.. name dy farzana.. " 
then kwn sbelah dy
Farzana : "woi~ mane ade lah.. memandai je ko nie.. ko jgn layan fafa nie " (sambil mke senyum2)

then bermula kisah aku kat dalm kelas 2 Zuhud.. and hidup aku mula berubah sdikit demi sdikit.. tiap hari.. aq belajar mcm biase.. pergi kantin ramai org usha.. aduss.. please.. aku x mau feymes dlm skolah nie.. kalu buleh org x prsan pon kewujudan aku.. time tu.. aq mmg x penah terniat nak ngorat awek tu ke awek nie ke.. awek tu cun ke awek nie baik ke.. sume aq x heran.. aq mmg seorang yg fokes kepada pelajran tapi kuat main.. dats my existing nature from the beginning.. and every time end of examination.. i will be at the top 5 student in da class.. who knows?? 

tapi satu je yg aq x leh nak lari.. berAngkat angkat.. -__- time nie aku masih sekolah kat Perak.. time tu ade lah sorang kakak nie.. name dy Raihana.. aq dok usha je dy.. cantik.. mmg cantik.. mke dy licin je.. skali dy senyum.. bunga mendayu dayu berhayun.. amboih.. lebih2 tuh.. ahah! xde lah.. tapi siyes.. cantik.. then aq nak ckap ape.. just usha2 je lah dari jauh.. then member aku name faka ni.. asyik dok bermacho macho then wat bising lah ape lah.. nak gain attentionn from kakak tuh.. faka ni citer lah kat aku yg dy nak amik kak raihana ni sbgai akak angkat dy.. then aq ckap

"try lah.. ikut ko lah faka oi"

.. then suatu hari nie.. ade pmpn panggil aku kat belakng and name dy farah.. "weh.. ni surat utk ko.. ade kakak form5 bagi name dy Kak Na" aku amik sambil tersenyum..

back2 at the skolah Kat BBSt.. mcm biase.. time tu aq baru form two.. during time recess, kompem aku follow dak2 nie gi kantin.. then mule lah bergossip sana sini.. tp tthe best part is about kakak2 and abg2 form 5.. haha.. tau2 jelah bile laki2 bergossip tntang ape.. mntak tak lari dari topic tuh.. tbe2.. ade lah skumpulan akak2 form 5 turun lalu kat sidewalk nak ke kantin.. kitowng pon berhenti sejenak.. then ade lah member aq yg sorang nie.. name dy haris.. dy ckap lah..

"weh! tuh2!! akak Robek (rabiatul).. tip top doh~ putih2 merah" 

aku pun usha lah.. siot lah dak2 nie.. engatkan ape lah tadi.. tapi kak robek tu buleh tahan lah.. cun jgak.. eleh.. aq sume cun.. 

balik kelas.. aq tgk si classmate aq name farzana nie still x pg rehat lg.. time tu aq balik straight ke kelas and dak2 laki len singgah tempt lepak (toilet).. aq masuk kelas tgk dy dok sensorang.. then aq tegur lah

Syahir : "weh.. name ko farzana kan? " (sejak bile aq berani tegur pmpn-__-)
Farzana : "oh~ syahir.. uh? aah.. nape?" "ko x gi rehat ke.. wat ape??" "aq mlas ah turun, lagipun nak siapkan geograpi punye kerje kursus nie.." 
Syahir : "oh~ mmg slalu x turun lah yer.. " "uh? hm.. ntahlah.. kkdng turun lah jgak kalu xde kerje.. "

then kitowng berborak lah.. tapi rasenye kejap je.. sbb tbe2 dak2 pmpn dah balik dari rehat.. so kami pon tersenyap tbe2.. then mule lah mulut dak pmpn name nasiha ni ckap "eh.. korang 2.. dalam kelas?? oooo~~~~" then dak len pon "oooo~" aku pon.. adoi.. dah2.. wat tatau jep.. aq pndang sipi ke arah Farzana.. then dy senyum malu2.. amboih! baru form 2 dah pndai2.. ceit! 

tiap hari aku pndang cermin dan berkata 
"aq bersyukur dgn pemberian-Mu, like do i ask to be born with this face"

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i did it.. i did it.. congrats for me.. but.. just for me after all..  farewell.. u really remind me a lot..

sejak bile aku pndai amik karya org nieh.. -___-
but if i were the boyfriend.. i never ever dare to take the challenge.. if u thrusted ur gf.. u dun mind the challenges aftreall.. rite? and anyway, how come u dont realise ur Gf is not in a good condition.. nampak sgt x penah cares.. huh!

at the night.. my family went to Cinema nearest at our house.. before dat.. at the evening "syahir.. amik duit nie pergi beli tiket wyg, sape nak tgk pon buleh ikut jgak.. beli je tiket" said ma father.. then of course lah nak ikut jgak.. since adik2 g tgk criter seru.. and im already watched it.. and of cos.. my sisters said it NO good overall for the muvie.. but for me , my dad n my mom.. we went to Fast Five muvie.. which is "Fast and Furious 5"..
you know what.. this muvie damn really thumbs up! i was so excited all over ma body.. when i see the best part.. my body and feelin moved over the flow of the muvie..isk2.. sampai camtu skali..

guess what this Fast five related to tokyo drift.. because the character named Hans also in this muvie story. and what met me said this muvie best ever.. cause it is more than the older movie.. what more?? more from the views of the camera.. not making the watcher waitin for shitt. the car being used is high.. the actions is like 60% in the muvie.. and what more.. when Van Diesel fighting with Dwyane Johnson (the rock).. ouh!!! can u imagine si muscle ketat 2 ekoq tu bertumbok.. fuhh!! its started to fight when the rock made van disel mad cause the rock smash van diesel Beauty (Van disel car).. hehe.. but overall of the story is objectively want to rob a high position man in the Brazil country named Reyes.. not a little of his money.. but said van diesel.. "we gonna take em all" its worth 100 million++ dolar and divided by 10 people means each get 10-11 million per person.. and everybody started to making their wishlist..

click here for the trailer..

GABAN AH CITER NIEH!! >.<

saturday..
my day went pretty well.. cause im glad at the morning.. for what? for anythin lah.. :-p beside im on workin and helping ma mom in her catering.. my neighbour bekwah.. and its went into pretty tired seasons for me.. imma sleep for just 3 hours.. but its okay.. i just keepin my self busy anyway.. the best part is we prepared a "pulut kuning" as ordered by our neibour and i admit dat its hard to prepared it perfectly.. its really need all the gut.. but after all.. my mom is the best cooker.. hehe bangge2.. bahaha! so my mom manage to do it perfectly like always.. ;) and guess what.. imma the one decorated it.. but believe me.. i no good in decorated.. -__-
 meja dinner dipenuhi oleh roti bun yg ditempah ..

 daging kambing and daging lembu..

haa.. ni lah yg pulut-besar-susah-nak-buat tu.. overall 10 KG.. x campur berat pelapik.. ferrero rosheh kot.. :p

since the upcomin mother day and my mother birthday went on da same date.. so its easy for me to wish mother day and birthday at the same tyme.. but the fact.. all country has their own date for mothers day and it went one different date.. depend on their country itself.. but at my house.. "penah ke sambut hari ibu??" naa.. xpenah pon.. just engat2 camtu je.. the best part is hari jadi ibu.. kan kan..

since we already done in our catering.. so we decided to rest a lil bit before preparing for tomorrow Balqis birthday.. awh~ and fyi.. balqis is as cute as mia in the "adam maya" movie.. ahaha.. gurau2.. nope.. she just an adorable child.. ;) and tomorrow is her birthday.. but now im still playin around at this working place.. -__-

ps : anak korea nie x leh snyap sikit ke.. "whaddaheck2" dari tadi.. -_-

20110506

SHe is GedixxxXxXx girl

please dun keep me as a stranger.oh God~ give me the way. the true way. i never regret for what ive done and now why? why i always being regret and ashamed for myself. once before. late.. yah! its a lil bit too late for me.. 

the time. for da first time . i enter the class and i saw so many new student dat i dun know. but my eyes just attracted to someone. and dat is a girl. i dun know why. the people often said. this is first-love-views. but i think. naa.. she even better than me. attractfull. full of suprised. and everyday will make me want to wait for her and see what she gonna do this day. what she wearing this day. and dat time her hijjab is covering her face a little. so i keep searchin for the opportunity to see her really face. why are u hiding..

from dat first class of mine. in my mind keep sayin dat. its imposible for me. she even not looked at me. and i feelin dat she maybe already hav a bF and i dun want to disturb their relationship. and my daily life goes and goes like always and like usually. one day, i went to Intro to IT class and there a piece of paper pass by my friend to me and the paper is for askin for the email, myspace, yahoo and others. so i decided to copy it all first and it took so long.. hehe.. but btw. dats is because all of my female classmate already wrote theirs. so it would be likely to me. 

then back from the class. i straight back to my room and then absolutely online. then i started to open all the email that i copy than started add one by one. and at last i found this rare-girl in the class and her profile pic was wearing a striped black-green sweater and she damned so cute dat time cos she glowing her cheek in and out. i stared at the photo about 5 min. not dat long bcause i scared my friend will entered and my room and then kantoi.. :p it was so fun staring at the pic dat time.. adorable. i dun know if this will make out but for suddenly. my friend request was been approved. i was so happy then she also komen at my pic.. i was happy like revived from death . and i started to chat with her all day.

after that we continue ym-ing. back there i was so upset because i think you and faiz was really onto something. because faiz said he always texting you. ym0ing with you. and why i feels somethin in me dat some kind of jealous or maybe upset. but deep in my heart i already said it is imposible for a cute girl will like me. then i just. i just and i just keep my feelin for myself and not letting everybody know about it. when i attend to class. i will see her from behind . always. and sometimes i lost my intention in the class. huh! im ma really lost when i saw you. everything i do in the class. i hoped i will gain ur attention at me. and one of the picture i like is when she wearing a shawl , a black shawl attends to en azrul class doing the cable wire thing.. i cant keep removing my eyes from you. you were attractfull enough.

day by day, i started to msg her at Myspace like usually and i said to her "weh.. sombong ah kau.. jumpe x tegur pon >.<" then she reply "eh.. mane ade.. ko ah kne tegur dulu.. mane boleh pmpn tegur laki.. malu lah.."  then i suddenly realize.. then one day after class.. at the cafe.. "weh! dak gedixxx!" ..."eh.. ko lah gedixx" then we smiled for each others. when i back to my room. i will online and wait for u to online too.. at the night before i sleep. why i always thinkin about you. "eh.. tadi aq tegur ko.. ko layan eh.. ingat x nak layan" "well.. see.. aku dah ckap.. laki kne tegur dulu.. ;-)"

the next day.. we both keep ym-ing with the da "gedixx" issue and at last i will stoped and giveup. before we going bad. i keep confusing when she willing to WC with me rather than any of my friend. but still i didnt realised that u giving more for me. then one day. while im at the safwan room. one msg with BOF ringtone ringing comin from my phone. "... syahir.. i ske lah kat syahir" then i reply "haha.. jgn lah men2.. kalu camtu syahir pon ske jgak kat u" then i dun get her reply msg then.

then another day.. while im ym-ing. come another msg. "syahir x ckap lagi keputusan syahir." then i replied "uh? keputusan ape? " "alah yg psal smlm tuh" "u sirius ke nie??" "yelah.. engat org men2 ke.." "hihi~ kalu camtu x mo lah, sebab.. biar syahir yg mintak, x gentle ah---- um~ you, syahir ske lah kat u.. and i think i started loving you, can you be my girlfriend " then she replied "yes!!!" .. i then we startin to know each other so very deeply. and until now i realize how she adore me so much and i adore her so much. and we both laugh with full of gratefullness. i still remembered dat time u said dat "now ure mind"

i was so glad and happy cause i realize a girl dat i considered impossible to love me now is my gF. until then i appreciate she so much and never ever leave her and go to another girl. as for me. if i destined to met more beautifull woman than her. my heart would said. i already hav a girl that is beautifull than everyone in this world. day by day. my heart more falling to her.. after knowing she has a beautifull heart too.. she is a loving person.. onestly. all her act was really give a joy in my life. in my heart "i will take care of you no matter what happen.." i really like to achieved and give what u like. cause it will make you happy. i change my number to maxis. and it is before the upcomin date of your birthday. and it also for the sake of us. we cant keep calling at the night.

and now.. all dat.. gone.. and it is because of me.. yes.. because of me. i dont know why.. i changed so much from dat awfull times.. and now.. i back to be my self again. and i ready for all thing gonna happen. i really missed yo so much.. i miss those word "ILYSFDM" when are my phone gonna started ringing again.. i missed u taking care of me.. mad of me because i didnt take my medicine.. i miss those hand too. when are we gonna balik kampung with ktm together again. there i was so happy cause i could protect you even for a while. i miss you telling me the price and the price after discount of ur wedgie and then you will said "berbaloi kan". and i keep support you at the thing will make u happy. when i see dat roasted doll. i will remmbered you. ur face. ur silly smile. ur cute face. ur voice, ur sulkin at me. and i like to coax you with all my gut. when i heared the cascada song. my heart feels like dropping down. a moment from before.. i hurt you so much. i also make you cried.. shit! that is the biggest fault of mine.. im really sorry.. and im sincerely sorry.


somethin dat i want to know why i jelous like a stupid man from before.. and its of course because i afraid to lost you. cause ure really attractive person. and i know dat you never fall for them cause u already had me. and yet.. just me dat keep thinkin the stupid jealous ever. people always said dat, if we are jealous mean we are loved that person so much and afraid to lost her. but yet.. for me. i think i shud be jealous at back there.. cause i already make a promse dat will believed you and thrusted you 100%. oh. no. 120%.. yes.. dats the deal and yet.m the one forget a bout the deal.. huh! and really i do apologize. even its a lil bit too late.


and now. seems to be like u living more happily. and i wish i dun want to disturb u with my pain at the back. maybe im gonna be in  pain a lot.. but if this called as a punishment.. i will sincerely accept it with my opened heart. as long as i saw ur face smiling again.


i hope the person didint read this.. cause i dont want the person remmber this pain again. im really sorry.. my heart still not lacking of love from yours.

its hard to believed.. im afraid.. yeah.. very afraid.. i think im gonna prepare myself first.. i dun want it to be a nightmare for me again.. btw, its all because of my fault.. yeah.. i truly admit it.. im bad, im cruel, im not seem to be what u want... im also jual-ikan.. but as for me.. what the main thing is always keep flyin-like-bird in my imagination is what you need.. and im always struggling bout that.. no sweat.. ;')

btw.. my day flowing like always but today im on a preparation for BEKWAH my opposite neighbour house.. since Kak Lin (neighbour name) never do this BEKWAH thing.. she said she want to do it rite now.. since (bape byk since daa-__-) her family is stable rite now.. which mean, her Husband now workin as a head in the company.. and for her himself.. she now working as a landscape Manager.. so her family rite now is in a good condition me could say.. hehe..


she now just got a twin child which is Boy and Girl.. (the boy came out first ;-) ) and.. seem like she want to make this BEkWah so much.. she decorrated her house so much.. fuhh! kalah umah aku .bhahaha! .mcm umah aku cantik sgt.. so.. after all, earlier, i said i want to keep myself busy.. so here come.. busy enough like hell.. letih wooo~

p/s 1 : sorry mommy.. boy lari kejap pergi update blogsh! hehe..
p/s 2 : BEKWAH mean kenduri.. a translation from kamus KElantan siri ke 2.. ;)


still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much.. i<3u

20110505

it's still remain

a bond.. a bond really lies at these kind of group..
sometimes.. friends is always be there..
when i cried.. they shares the same tears..
when i sad.. they share the same pain like mine..
when i laugh.. they shared the joy of mine..

but..
if this the feeling of being lonely..
i feel like gonna die in my empty world.. why such dat thing really need to be happened? why?
please.. give me my true strength again and please give my friend again..
and..
my love one..
i did do many thing with you back there..
i for the first time really know what happiness to be when i first knowing you..
and i feel very calmly when you were near me..
and for those shits act of mine..
please forgive me.. i never blame a single thing from you..
i doesnt want to be in this shitty shit again..

it seems to be im smiling all the time..
lightfully joy come from my face..
but, deep inside my heart..
i could feel every single one of my heartbeat..
if this is the true pain.. and this thing will make you more happier after..

i rather sacrifice myself suffering in pain and the scars will remain recovered after seeing u smile again..
"baby, are u okay"
"ngantok eh"
"xpelah.. tido lah.. nant dah smpai syahir kejut.. :')"


something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i 
something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..
something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..

20110504

always there with me..

eyyy!! bertumbok jgak kang aq ngan domo nieh!! >.< ops.. silap2.. bertumbok jgak kang aku demi domo niehh.. :') syg2~

GA : anyways , always learn to work by urself and not relying on anyone.. thats what i remmbered all day long..

Work-aholic..!!

tatau lah nape balik2 cuti nieh current mood likely goes to working mood.. fuhhh~ ntah lah.. maybe its my some sort of thing that i want to keep my self busy with.. i want to clear my mind instead.. i dun want to harm myself anymore.. so i decided to keep my self busy..

there's go, day by day, kebetulan plak.. byk pulak kerje yg memerlukan pekerje.. haish.. so.. aq pon grab this opportunity huhu.. aik.. mcm ayat entrepreneur je.. -__- btw.. here my schedule for last 3 days

Monday

working at Orange's : 2-6 a.m.
SoftTowel : 8-9p.m.

Tuesday
Orange's : 12-6a.m.
Ikea Tech' : 3-6p.m.

Wednesday
Orange's : 12-6a.m.
Ikea Tech' : 2-5a.m.

Ikea Tech' : kerje pasang2 ni je pun.. still letih woo~ >.<
 
besides i didnt really calculate the total of my fees at all.. just ready to receive it at this upcomin 25th May.. ouh!! ;')

Alone

today.. for the first time.. aku g tgk mubee sensorang.. hehe.. dah ajak sume org x mau.. masing2 ada hal.. hm yeah.. nak wat camne.. people hav their own time.. so let it be.. so xpelah.. so aq pergi cinema kat Times Square.. cause yg pling best and dekat dgn umah aq.. ;-) i decided to enjoying this Movie called "SerU".. buleh tahan lah jgak cte tuh.. but for me.. what im gonna said that im used to this Malay Ghost.. so x kesah + x heran + x seram.. dah biase.. it cant be help.. Gomenasai..~ :')

my really hobby at the time is watchin movie but only at free time.. hehe (like hell) .. huhu.. but its true yaw.. i always likely to go to cinema and watch muvie.. its gonna be my priority always to put watchin movie at the top.. tu kalu xde keje sgt lah.. sbnarnye keje 1st priority :p (kalah anak Keling aku nie -_-) ahah! gomena2~
lagi satu.. my hobby also collecting the cinema ticket.. no wonder why.. it just happened.. hehe..

dulu kat kolej, i always watchin this new box office muvie.. algi2 dah bawak kete ke kolej.. so lagi lah liar berjalan.. tapi dats all dah abes berlalu and it suddenly stop rite there.. hm~ pas ni start pulak zaman2 aq tgk wyg sensorang.. what can i do.. so soyrieee..;')


pas ni kne letak ticket kat koleksi len.. wat group baru.. ;')
 
nape lah cite yg jenis "SEPI" xkuar pawagam mase nie... :'(

20110503

Wo-MAN stuff being..

balik dari jumpe client mama hari tuh.. terus pergi anto adik kat this place called maju junction.. there a Shop called GAVY.. and there hav a quit interesting tools for women.. for women.. hehe.. patotlah adik nak sgt pergi situh.. haish! adelah.. wedgie2.. flip floppy.. hand bags.. sbgainye.. tapi okey lah brg2 situ x mhal pon..


ni jelah gambor2 yg sempat dicuri.. cause takot pulak dituduh plagiarism.. hehe.. ade byak agi.. cantik2 and murah.. tgk design lebih kurang vincci lebih kurang carlo rino pun ade.. ntah lah.. i not used to this women stuff anyway.. -_-'

sbnarnye bkan nak cte sal nieh.. tapi nak cte sal Men stuff.. hehe.. tadi jojo call.. biase lah.. kom pem nak tanye sal where the placed to buy this brand and this brand stuff.. so i mention lah.. at pavi, Ou, Sunway, Sungai wang bagai.. so dy ckap.. ko x gi shoping keh?? sale doh.. brg2 aku tgk sume out of stock.. cepat gila abes.. yg limited edition pon ade.. huh? then malang bagi ku sebab lambat.. haish.. sokay.. len kali aq gi cari cepat.. haish.. and btw, im like to spent my money for this stuff rite now.. ;-)

this is Obbie..

This is my cats.. lookin like snowbell rite... but its not.. this is obbie.. no sweat?! and its not kucing KL.. ceit!
now im in really a bit confusing.. hehe.. whats for? its okay.. let me die in my own world.. you gonna be fine by that.. :)

and now its all about my domo daily life.. hm.. since im really a-DOmo-man so its not a big deal.. domo kebelakangan ni degil sikit.. mane aq pegi sume dy nak mencapap.. isk2.. can u just remove urself from mylife?? isk3.. but it cant be help anyways.. i missed so much.. hehe..  tapi kkdg domo slalu gak kne buli sume.. kesian2.. what can i do.. they all my friend too.. so let you be friend with them.. ;-)
 oh~ siyesly~ mmg selesa gilaaa tdo mcm tuh.. aq penah try kot.. no wonder awey nyenyak sgt2..

ni lah akibat nye nak ikut sgt .. org g basuh kete je pon.. -__-

mgkin dy puas kot dok umah.. xpelah.. since sy pon xde kwn.. so aq bwak jelah ekau yer.. since you really important to me thou.. :')

since again.. i felt again.. shitt! huh~ -__-

btw dah dekat 2 minggu since i left my college life.. hm.. rindu plak nak kembali.. but trust me.. my feelin not gonna be like this if i were at college right now.. tapi sebaliknye rindu kan rumah pulak.. aduss.. -__- pelik2~

suatu hari ketika aq baru pulang dari kelas english pada hari jumaat.. aq rase diriku amat bahagia dan tenang skali.. mgkin sbb ianya hari jumaat? or maybe cause she smiled at me? hm.. who knows.. but i feel like i was being in a world that doesnt have a problem.. im free.. im free.. i feel safe... at that day.. only me and fathi was went to the class.. and u know i'm rily great suck in english.. pardon me~ most at all.. its gonna be me at the end who protect myself.. hhu..

petang tu balik semyg jumaat.. serbu kafe pak samad.. ape lagi.. lunch time lah.. hehe.. besides, all my friend were there too.. including the foreigner friend of mine.. ;) kalu kitowng dah berjumpe.. hm~ mmg x engat dunia lah.. like hell bergossip.. gossip ke? xsesuai2.. we're talking and hav a nice talk.. how that? :') hehe :p balik2 je.. aq lah bg idea wat keje gile.. hehe... nant aq cte aaaagi..


 ni pelompat pertama : mister alaa mAdeng :p

ni pulak yg ke2.. : Amzar..

tinggi kot menatang tuh.. aq pon lompat jgak.. tapi malang skali xde yg amik gambo.. hehe.. sokay.. not a big deal.. next time aq lompat bnde lagi tinggi.. ;)

and isu terPelik skrang nie.. lagi2 pasal gula2 ngan 27:4 ape ntah.. bengong ape lah.. sorry2.. ape brang men tiru2 nieh.. engat nak dapat market tinggi ke? oh my~ PUBLISITI MURAHAN.. isk2.. mmg x sesuai langsung kulit typical malay and comparing with the korean one.. buweekkk!! ok that enough.. -__- find ur own style guys and girls.. waduh2!!


but im really missed that banana split.. >.< (tbe2)

20110502

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sometime it is painfull;
sometime it is really painfull;
and sometimes it do really painfull;
but for me.. i will keep waitin and i hope it will make u happy..
i not really use to this stuff..
but i once being dumped..
but its okay.. i moving over the flow like always.. 
i already planned a lot and many thing i want to do with..

when you woke up at the morning 
"dah2 lah tuh tdo.. ni syahir bawakkan drink utk awk.. its a promise remember? chup! syahir love u with all my heart.. good morning dear.. (kissed her forehead) "

before i go to work
"syahir pergi dulu, jage diri leklok.. (dy betulkan tie syahir) nant lunch time syahir telepon.. and its a promised, do you remmber? (smiling and kiss her forehead)"

at the lunch time (office)
"hey lalink? (ketawa sinis) you dah mkn? laa.. nape belum? oh.. nak mkn skali yer ptg jap g.. hihi.. mcm2 you nie.. sokay.. ptg ni jgn masak.. balik nant syahir bawak pergi mkn tempat best yeh.. mmuah! take care :')"
 (sambil memegang perut menahan kelaparan)

balik kerje
"assalamualaikum.. syahir dah balik.. (kiss her forehead again) jom2~ pie siap.. nant terlepas flight plak.. ahaha gurau2.. :p jom2 pie siap.." (after 1 hour)
"dah siap ke? jom lah~ syahir dah ade kat bawah nie.. " (dan dia pon turun)
"........awak tau x.. syahir mempunyai seorang isteri yg cantik.. syahir syg awak sepenuh hati.. chupp! dah2.. jom2.. ;)"

balik dinner
"awak dah solat? jom2 solat skali.. dah masuk waktu nie.. "(abes solat, cium tgn syahir)

before sleep
"u happy x hari ni? syahir mintak maaf kalu ade slah pape.. dari hujung rambut sampai ujung kaki.. ;') btw, (kiss her forehead once again) syahir syg u smpai mati.. before forget i love you dear and its a promise u remmber? :') (sambil memeluk erat)"

i gonna remmber every single word what i promised you and i never forget in loving u every single second of my life.. dear the becoming person or existed person.. its gonna be like im gonna hang out with you even im at 65 years old.. i will give u flower at the garden and under the witneess of moon or the sun and sky.. Dear God, please make my wish be true and please dun take my Love before You taking me first..


sincerely by SYAHIR

Please..! choose my! choose me!

Domo Phantom: i will fight you till death.. <3

my my~ never mind.. been working for 1 week and memonteng for one days (thank to awok, i owe u one..) like usually and once online-ing till muntah.. tapi tyme bz x de gak mase nak online tuh.. 

i worked at 12 until 6 then blik umah solat subuh sume bagai.. then x tdo.. opkos lah.. kos lepas subuh x elok tdoq.. kan kan.. so all the day i been through tdoq pada pukul 9.30 or 10.. its a great and suitablos tyme.. did it? yah tenkiu for agreeing.. ;) petang2 slalu kne kacau ngan home work dari mama tercintew.. adusss! WhadddaaheCk? anak laki pon kne wat keje umah..? gila x cool.. tapi sometimes its gonna be really good to help each other.. and its me and myself always helping it.. itsokay lorh... 

suatu mlm nieh, aq nengok lah cte "moving in" kat MTV kot.. ntah ler.. tapi cte nye mengisahkan seorang lady yg tgah conpiUs dlm choosing which one of the boyfriend that she gonna choose between the two of her BF? and like alwayys.. WhatdaaHeck?! this girl dating 2 boys in one time.. isk2.. so she decide to let her mother father choose for her and after that her parent set a really tough exam.. 2 orang BF tadi pon terpakse duduk dalam umah tu and for two day.. diorang lalui ujian2 yg diberikan oleh keluarga Si Perempuan.. and at last the one name Tom win the title of the bf.. 

yah2.. mmg best tapi.. x elok pmpn tu wat cmtuh.. bek awal2 lagi just pilih satu and fokus satu je.. kalu x leh gak cari ah len.. laki yg sorang lagi tu pon bkan bek sgt.. panas baran lah ape lah.. hehe.. ckap sng lah kan.. cbe bygkan kalu aku ni yg ade kat situ.. huh?! like im gonna give it up?? no way.. i gonna take what it gonna cost.. i will ensure the girl parent at all my might that i can protect the girl at the cost of my life.. >.<

20110430

My Life IS starting To Empty, accordingly..

currently im stuck at this not-so-hardcore-ing-CYbErcAfe named KomaNg.. hehe.. doing my part time job like always.. mcm biase lah.. cuti je mest ade je kerje nak wat.. hehe.. dah lumrah kehidupan im cant live in sleeping-eating-praying and so on.. tapi best gak dok kerje2 camni.. carik kerje yg best2.. yg kene ngan minat diri sendiri then kerje kompem puas hati.. x engat erti letih at all.. tau2 ckop blan dapat my fees.. ouh~ such that simple.. hehe.. pape pon.. kat sini knal dengan ramai kenkawan bawu.. boleh online2 stuff nieh.. tapi x sangke pulak im now be friend with the boys that colouring their hair, dressing maut2.. awek sume mini skirt.. (tak sume lah) tapi its good to be friend with them all.. (moga2 sy x terjebak.. berkawan is enough and thats it)..

who knows, skung nie i kembali berbloging stuff.. sosial-ing.. tapi sorry For Rebecca Cek Mat.. im not that ready for you.. im really sorry.. (ouh! >.< i just simply reject a really nice girl.. !#^$$#!@ -__- ) i think u better to find a more nicer man than me.. i know you came to see all the day since im working here.. but you not really know me well.. so we need a realy more tyme.. yah? :') for sure.. you will find more interesting and adorable guy than me.. ;')

cite2 nyer.. masuk sem 3 nieh.. nak tubuhkan group fixxie aku kat kuis.. paan, Pak tie, Awun, Sapuan, Lupi, aku, and maybe jojo.. Hopefully PTpTN korang ckop.. T.T aq dah tempah kot Pixxie aku.. terbaik punyeh.. ;) since my fwen is among the pixxie group.. mlm2 minggu kompem bicycle-ing along the Ampang Park.. no wonder sume tough2.. :p (tough = keding ) so, i sempat lah menanye mcm2 about pixxie nie..

Syahir : "weh.. ko bantai pixxie ni kat mane? kilang ke? tau x mane2 kaki yg murah.. aku nak angkut byk nieh.. member aku pon nak angkat jgak.."
Dong : "aq bantai dalam umah org doh"(salah tanye org -__-)
Apek : "ko dari dulu dok men dalam umah org.. kerje malas.. menCU** rajin.. "
Apek : "xde lah wey.. kitowng amik kat blkang Pavina Court tuh.. angkut basic 250-300 rm .. pilih kaler.. kalu nak tambah brek ke tongkat ke gear ke.. harge len.. nant ko cek-ke-dout lah"

20110410

Once again and Not at All

tankiu tankiu tenkiu very2 much.. and sory sory sory very much.. skrang im back o9.. sory2.. xte nye.. engat nak tutup dah.. nak delete dah account.. but malas plak.. so.. bia jelah usang dgn sendiri nye.. :') tapi pape pon.. boring2.. mai jgak jengok2 sini.. kot2 lah ade something new.. =p papepon.. im gona update.. update and update untill im tired at least.. ahah jokes.. ;') "maybE" so hav a nice day syahir.. ;-)

20110219

DIdnt love your Family??

its my time and its your time.. but the truth is we shared our tyme together.. :">

kali nih.. ceq nak habaq sal "ISU SEMASA" yg ade dalam paper nowadays.. WatDaHeck!!! oh~ you know wat im babling about?? am i rite?? hehe.. x len x bkan lah kan.. psal tragedi rumah tangga and pasangan yg pelik lagi memelikkan yg begitu freakin all out... >.<

wat im tryin to deliver is about dunia di zaman kini makin macam tunggang terbalik.. aduss2.. >.< lebih kurang cam dalam cte Karyawan Allayarham Tan Sri P. Ramlee which is "Keluarga 69".. hehe.. haaa!!! ni lah yg ceq nak habaqqqq dari sat tadi.. haish2.. sbgai contoh titles yg ade setiap hari dalam paper yg aq ikuti sepanjang beberapa hari ni such as :

"Isteri Sanggup Tipu Suami", "Ritual Penyerahan", Bawak Anak Takut Kene Cekup Bersama Scandal", "Kemaruk Beristeri Empat", "Remaja Perkosa budak 5 Tahun", "Ummi Mengaku Scandal", and "Menantu Sayang Mentua"..

see! i told caa.. ;-) mane x jadi emosi yg terlampau bile bce sume menatang har** ni.. aq ngan si lupi dah saling bertukaq makian dah... ouh im very depressed rite now.. uh? ok. fullstop.  as for me.. if i were a husband and a father.. i'll say like this, listen yah my future wife and my future childs :"> :

"starting from i know you and we get married.. not even once my heartbeat say want to find scandal or to be unfaithfull.. all my success and averystep i success is fully aiming for my dearest family.. and i gratefull and appreaciate what i hav.. Chup! :"> "


i love my family especially.. you.. :-)

20110218

life in passion

life is like a race.. a race to achieve the success..
as for me.. i just remembered one thing.. learn to live and the success will come for you..
life is full of loneliness and im always in dat situation.. sometimes..
and as for me.. live ur life well in ur loneliness and yet the crowds will appear crowding around you..
life is boring.. and it'll boring you all da tyme..
yet for me.. i need my friend or dat gurl.. please do understand..

20110210

Deserved 2

i've once felt like this before..
but not as this much..
whats wrong with me..
all this time wif all my heart..
i do and i really do into you..and why?
Why is this always happened to me..
Why you choosed me.. why?
please do explain.. 
all the time in my life..
i have faith in you..
hm.. its ur decision..
sy hormat and im ready.. 
im ready.. and i always ready to..
waiting and continue..
and
i hope its not too late.. :'(

20110131

SELEMBUT BICARA



ni lah dy filem lakonan aq dan tyrah yg baru siap.. hehe.. belum ape agi dah dapat award.. FYI.. boleh download kat internet skunk..

The person

what is it..

define ourselves as we choose..
where a jock can cook up a mean creme brulee.
where a silently cocroches start headbanging..
where a darkness shirt turned out to heavenly bright..
and this is the place..

its the place where one person..
if its the right person..
its changes us all..

Maa~ please get well soon~ i need to achieve ur strength again.. like u always do.. :'(

DeserveD

hey.. blocks.. =P 
lame jgak x sentuh blogs ni an.. hehe
sepanjang itu jgak lah aq bz ngan waktu2 aq.. sampai lpekan dairy aq nie..
overall.. many sicken sicks extraordinary acts of life happenin to me at that duration..
what i knew from the beginning.. i always havin fun and im happy if all arounds me happier too..
exam hall is calling me day by day.. 
huh? what you think..? i 'll sit down and finish my skirmish games after all..?
hehe.. not at all and u will see.. ;-)
ouh!! im so powered up (mcm NATSU dlm cter fairytale plak..)
walaubagaimanacarapun.. i must comtinue to live on..
i love my chalengging world.. for others.. back off!!
and and and! satu agih.. wah.. bkan men riang Awe.. dapat msg "Hatiku berbunga bunga" 
haha.. bkan men lagih dak tuh ngan awey.. hehe.. jok'in yaw~
rasenye tu je ot.. yg len cte len post.. see yah..

eh.. and and and! for Your Information.. Si Cekodok tu is mine.. yg ade penGGELI nak menGgeli nak tackle dy tu apsal.. 

here comes.. 
i've choosen to live in happy life..
and
i've also choosen to live in great life..
but most of all..
i choose the person who inspires my heart..
which is why i picked that flower before anybody else..

-miss Athirah Ahmad Sazali

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DEATH

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IS

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WANT

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I

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EVERYTHING

20110110

The daY we went turn out bright..

5 january... 2011.. its is.. yeah it is the very best day in my life ever.. please.. give me my day again..
i dunno im gonna start with wat and from where.. the truth is.. thanx to she's.. of coz, my bigger precious..
our day start with class at 8.15 a.m. but it turned out not great because class were cancelled.. (eleh.. yeke..)
then pergi class hafazan.. and finished tasmi' one surah.. (oh~ very pity me)
then rase cam x sedap jew harini sbb harini hari jadi aku.. so its up to me to give me myself happiness..
then, nak x nak.. i dicide curi ferraRi zafe and culik anak encik ahmad tuh sorok kat alamanda for a while..
hehe :"> then we're going to A&W.. hehe.. evenDo x dpat hadiah besaq mcm bday boy len.. 
tp.. im very very satisfied becos i could finish my happiest day with my love... ouh~!!
tenkiu again to she's.. yah.. ops not just she.. she is my truly one.. truly beloved one.. 

TYA : Kegembiraan terserlah.. BURGER : please dun eat me.. :'(

Locations : TAsek Chini lah sgt

 Abc yg kelihatan very delicious but harm my love health.. 

Act - pretend x nampak ustad klass arabic Tyrah.. pfftt~

i dun care at all if we gonna do this egain.. i couldnt bare it.. i need you.. and i admit.. i love you with all my heart.. :">

20110104

Shall we dance?


Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine,
And let the music be your guide.

Won't you promise me (now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
We'll keep dancing (to keep dancing) wherever we go next

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you threw it all

And you can't keep us apart (even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart)
'Cause my heart is (cause my heart is) wherever you are

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Oh no mountains too high enough, oceans too wide
'Cause together or not, our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you (like you)
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do (way we do)
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

20110103

Again and Again

its fourrr days ago.. im with my friends.. riding a "LOAN Myvi".. went to MoshtAq b Mohd Salleh sister's wedding.. it started at the morning with The Malay Tradition and ended with Arabic tradition at nite.. its kinda great cause i get the feeling likes im the one in their family members.. we laugh together.. we shaking hand and kisses cheek.. hugging.. and other more :') i really like those friendly thing.. i get to ate the "Rendang Kambing".. hehe.. but i feel ashame cos didnt manage to ate a lot.. arghh~ about 9.50 pm like that.. the sweet couple bride walk along through the red carpet.. oh.. i couldnt imagine mine.. hm :') then accompanient wif their brother's including Moshtaq.. sing their "marhaban" in arabic language.. hehe.. then after the bride get to the Bridal sits.. then moshtaq immediately gave us a long decorated stick then said "org pgg kayu ni xleh malu2.." haha.. so we all just do what "Taq" required.. we all dance all the tyme.. in arabic style.. (not the hiphop/disco dance =.=) hehe.. then its already 10.30pm.. and its already late..

after all of that... im going back to drop by at my house for a couple of minute.. and you know what.. hehe.. k.. enough.. :') My Pops said that he can just give me a little of money.. cause "papa x wat kuaq duwet agi.. and blaa blaa..." k.. its okay.. cause i dah biase ngan xdew duwet nie.. haha (yekew??) then.. cium2 papa then balik..before balik jumpe mama plak.. then cium2 Mama then balik.. hehe.. i said to mama.. "mama, dah2 lah macam nie.. owg x ske ah tgk mama down cmnie.. mama balik yeh :'(" and she said "hm.. okay.. mama try.." hmm.. i hope it turn to be okay.. you knows something.. eventdo im looking so great, so happy, energetic in front of you all, but the truth is im not behind my another wall.. please.. can anyone  give me my strength again.. please.. Allah..