its hard to believed.. im afraid.. yeah.. very afraid.. i think im gonna prepare myself first.. i dun want it to be a nightmare for me again.. btw, its all because of my fault.. yeah.. i truly admit it.. im bad, im cruel, im not seem to be what u want... im also jual-ikan.. but as for me.. what the main thing is always keep flyin-like-bird in my imagination is what you need.. and im always struggling bout that.. no sweat.. ;')

btw.. my day flowing like always but today im on a preparation for BEKWAH my opposite neighbour house.. since Kak Lin (neighbour name) never do this BEKWAH thing.. she said she want to do it rite now.. since (bape byk since daa-__-) her family is stable rite now.. which mean, her Husband now workin as a head in the company.. and for her himself.. she now working as a landscape Manager.. so her family rite now is in a good condition me could say.. hehe..


she now just got a twin child which is Boy and Girl.. (the boy came out first ;-) ) and.. seem like she want to make this BEkWah so much.. she decorrated her house so much.. fuhh! kalah umah aku .bhahaha! .mcm umah aku cantik sgt.. so.. after all, earlier, i said i want to keep myself busy.. so here come.. busy enough like hell.. letih wooo~

p/s 1 : sorry mommy.. boy lari kejap pergi update blogsh! hehe..
p/s 2 : BEKWAH mean kenduri.. a translation from kamus KElantan siri ke 2.. ;)

still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much..still, missing she so very badly much.. i<3u

it's still remain

a bond.. a bond really lies at these kind of group..
sometimes.. friends is always be there..
when i cried.. they shares the same tears..
when i sad.. they share the same pain like mine..
when i laugh.. they shared the joy of mine..

but..
if this the feeling of being lonely..
i feel like gonna die in my empty world.. why such dat thing really need to be happened? why?
please.. give me my true strength again and please give my friend again..
and..
my love one..
i did do many thing with you back there..
i for the first time really know what happiness to be when i first knowing you..
and i feel very calmly when you were near me..
and for those shits act of mine..
please forgive me.. i never blame a single thing from you..
i doesnt want to be in this shitty shit again..

it seems to be im smiling all the time..
lightfully joy come from my face..
but, deep inside my heart..
i could feel every single one of my heartbeat..
if this is the true pain.. and this thing will make you more happier after..

i rather sacrifice myself suffering in pain and the scars will remain recovered after seeing u smile again..
"baby, are u okay"
"ngantok eh"
"xpelah.. tido lah.. nant dah smpai syahir kejut.. :')"

something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i 
something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..

something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..something often coming out slightly from my eyes everytime i remembered about you..

always there with me..

eyyy!! bertumbok jgak kang aq ngan domo nieh!! >.< ops.. silap2.. bertumbok jgak kang aku demi domo niehh.. :') syg2~

GA : anyways , always learn to work by urself and not relying on anyone.. thats what i remmbered all day long..

Work-aholic..!!

tatau lah nape balik2 cuti nieh current mood likely goes to working mood.. fuhhh~ ntah lah.. maybe its my some sort of thing that i want to keep my self busy with.. i want to clear my mind instead.. i dun want to harm myself anymore.. so i decided to keep my self busy..

there's go, day by day, kebetulan plak.. byk pulak kerje yg memerlukan pekerje.. haish.. so.. aq pon grab this opportunity huhu.. aik.. mcm ayat entrepreneur je.. -__- btw.. here my schedule for last 3 days

Monday

working at Orange's : 2-6 a.m.

SoftTowel : 8-9p.m.

Tuesday

Orange's : 12-6a.m.

Ikea Tech' : 3-6p.m.

Wednesday

Orange's : 12-6a.m.

Ikea Tech' : 2-5a.m.

Ikea Tech' : kerje pasang2 ni je pun.. still letih woo~ >.<

 

besides i didnt really calculate the total of my fees at all.. just ready to receive it at this upcomin 25th May.. ouh!! ;')

Alone

today.. for the first time.. aku g tgk mubee sensorang.. hehe.. dah ajak sume org x mau.. masing2 ada hal.. hm yeah.. nak wat camne.. people hav their own time.. so let it be.. so xpelah.. so aq pergi cinema kat Times Square.. cause yg pling best and dekat dgn umah aq.. ;-) i decided to enjoying this Movie called "SerU".. buleh tahan lah jgak cte tuh.. but for me.. what im gonna said that im used to this Malay Ghost.. so x kesah + x heran + x seram.. dah biase.. it cant be help.. Gomenasai..~ :')

my really hobby at the time is watchin movie but only at free time.. hehe (like hell) .. huhu.. but its true yaw.. i always likely to go to cinema and watch muvie.. its gonna be my priority always to put watchin movie at the top.. tu kalu xde keje sgt lah.. sbnarnye keje 1st priority :p (kalah anak Keling aku nie -_-) ahah! gomena2~
lagi satu.. my hobby also collecting the cinema ticket.. no wonder why.. it just happened.. hehe..

dulu kat kolej, i always watchin this new box office muvie.. algi2 dah bawak kete ke kolej.. so lagi lah liar berjalan.. tapi dats all dah abes berlalu and it suddenly stop rite there.. hm~ pas ni start pulak zaman2 aq tgk wyg sensorang.. what can i do.. so soyrieee..;')

pas ni kne letak ticket kat koleksi len.. wat group baru.. ;')

 

nape lah cite yg jenis "SEPI" xkuar pawagam mase nie... :'(