This Special hEart

Wasn't it was so nice and wonderful if i can express those feeling by chance . sometimes it would be hard to kept our heart save instead of touching other heart . 

i were used to be in love . as for me , i always be serious with who ever that became my girl . about four years ago i were being with this one wonderful girl which is came into my life and give my life happens once more . it is like i was reborn . about 3 years we , together live happy life . Unfortunately , things went badly before its just started . without realise , come one boy with a well status . Maybe some kind sort of a family that rich . and then this girl goes to him without answering my ask . what can i do . i just a simple boy coming from simple family . there is no used chasing a diamond that find a new user . and then , my effort in believing and faithful in her became useless .

after about 1 year , i still can forget about this girl from the back there . i register to this cozy islamic college . i started to find peaceful here , day by day , the more i try to forget, the more i will remember past memory . then come this miracle . a girl . i look really forward to know her so badly . what can i do . compared to her , i far more different in state of world . and since then i just kept my golden feeling in this golden heart of mine . without realising, the girl also kept the same feeling at me . and for one year we had been together since then . but thing also not went really right . and this is totally my fault . my effort for her is totally less . but i looking forward for only this girl who is really waiting for me too .

for me . when i became father or a husband or a boy friend , i will try to give my very best and also i willing to do what ever she told and i always by her side when ever she need me .

empty life

hari ni baru balik jogathon dari mimpi.. :p tapi siyesly.. xde nak wat pape ouh.. boring gilaa ah ! >.<
eleh.. padahal ade je kerje nak wat.. bertimbun lagi tuh.. check leklok list-to-do caien oi~

since today is sunday.. rase cam harini x elok nak wat kerje2 .. kalu nak wat activity sonok ah... jalan2 ka.. men bola ka.. dota-ing ka.. spend time ngan bnde2 yg x berpekdah but menghiburkan hati.. but after all.. len kali kalu nak free time utk sume nieh.. arrange lah time betui2.. sbelum hari sabtu menjelang tiba.. make sure all work done and xde kerje dah nak dibuat.. baru ah besh .. nant nak bersosial x pkir dah sal sume nieh.. ye dok..

aq ade mcm2 list.. "list-to-do.." ade 2.. jangka pnjang and pendek . kalu yg pnjang mcm lebih kpda mencabar sikit.. :p "10-thing-i-like-bout-her".. "my-tips".. and others.. tpi someday i will expose it to this "laman sesawang"..

skung ni tgah duk rendam bilik ayaq ngan sabun and cloroxxx.. jap g nak sental abih sume daki2.. buweeekkk~ slamat ah ade zape and awey kat bilik nieh.. buleh tolong2.. ye dok =)

safwang duk tacink2 ngan dak2 bilik dy.. haih.. x cta pun kat aku an.. Syeyrraam nieh.. pape pun.. keep cool.. anda mampu mngubah segalanya.. =') kalu x leh handle calling aku maih.. calling pak tie ke.. biar paktie bakar skit.. :p chill bro~ nant smpai mase just luahkan yg terpendam jgn tunggu smpai meletop .. ;)

Diary Khamis

aduh !! sakit bahuu dowh~ >.<' kan best kalu ade org urutkan .. hehe.. btw.. sonok aku tgk Tap Zoo aku dah meluas.. hehe.. safwan plak dah smngat update blog skung.. org suh yer ?? =p aku ? still lagi dlm alam persekolahan kolej akuh.. :)

makin active berpesatuan.. lagi2 ngan persada nieh.. doa aku kan tuhan agar dapat sponsor bbyk.. dapat lah pergi trip memane.. dinner ke.. ape ke.. =) 20% weyh share.. :p

harini aku baru abes meeting ngan Ustaz dari "Tanyelah Ustaz" yg siaran kat tv tuh.. abes nye pkul 12.00 =.='.. x nak lame plak kan.. duhh ! tapi xpe lah.. as long as input yg dapat byk.. =)

kelas hari ni plak mcm best sikit.. hari khamis.. ade midterm.. pnyelah stadoo smpai pkul 3 smlm.. masuk midterm tadi mcm nak nanges pun ade.. nak tergelak pon ade.. haish.. yg x leh blaa tuh.. dah ah siap same2 ngan zape ngan paiz and daam.. kompem puan dah syak kitowng tiru pnyelah.. naseb lah jawapan x same.. (mcm mane aku tau jwpan x same :p ) but i did my best ;)

nak plak kelas HCI aq lecturer baru dari UNISEL.. best gilaa.. dapat plak blajar Adobe FL .. evethough aku ckap kat lecturer tersebut aku tatau pape :p

English Presentation postpone lagi ? aaaa~ dah penat aku prepare setiap minggu camni.. tapi x pe lah.. org ckap training/exercise make perfect.. (ape kne mngene =.=')

and last skali mcm biase.. honor to u.. i do, i do like to see you smile ;) and happy .. i feel ashamed when i make u cried before and disapoint you enough.. and this will not happen again next time i try my best..

Untuk Ape BERSIH ni ??

yeyy ! akhirnye.. job pun dah siap.. duit pun masuk.. (bkan PTPTN, harap malum)
skung maaase cuti.. =) balik ni bawak kete.. since sticker dah smpai.. heheh.. skung ni sempat agi update kjap.. smntara tunggu safwan g antar bob dulu..

skung ni mcm2 cta kite dgar.. politik itu , politik ini.. mcm aku.. aku bkan org yg active sgt dlm politik2 nieh.. butaku tau mane yg betul n mane yg salah.. bg aku... dlm nak luahkan sesuatu yg berkaitan politik ni.. make sure kite ade pengetahuan yg kukuh dan jgak bukti kalu nak ckap yg mcm2 psal politik..

sape ckap xperlu dlm berpolitik nieh ?? meh sini jumpe aku.. even zaman nabi dulu pun ade politik dimana ketika dlm process pemilihan khilafah selepas kewafatan nabi.. kaji semula.. kaji leklok.. lagi satu.. sbb kita perlu berpolitik ini adalah utk memilih pemimpin kita.. bkan kah kita telah berIKRAR dlm ikrar rukun negara..

KEPERCAYAAN KEPADA TUHAN

KESETIAAN KEPADA RAJA DAN NEGARA

KELUHURAN PERLEMBAGAAN

KEDAULATAN UNDANG-UNDANG
KESOPANAN DAN KESUSILAAN

Highlight sikit kesetiaan kpd raja dan negara tuh.. dah name pun dok kat Malaysia.. mcm mane pun.. kite kne patuh pada undang2 yg telah digubal oleh para raja kite.. Malaysia sbgai satu negara berDEMOKRASI pun kite kne ikut jgak.. deyyy ! kasi paham sendiri lah.. KAllU ini mcm tara paham, susah lah sama kami.. luu oLang yg tiedak berpolitik, susah maa sama waa~

cerite plak sal BERSIH ni.. org duk ckap x elok.. x bleh lah.. ape plak ?? sape ckap x leh.. even YDP pun suh wat kat stadium bermakna YDP membenar kan.. OBjektif utama dlm BERSIH kita kne paham.. bkan utk membuat rusuhan atau kezaliman pada yg lain.. tapi utk menyuarakan ketidakpuashatian kepada politik negara dimana para pemimpin yg memerintah tidak menjalankan tanggungjawab dgn amanah.. 

ade jgak yg berpndapat bersih ini x elok sbb ade yg bakar2 itu.. curi2 itu ini ketika sedang mmbuat perhimpunan.. ada yg pkai baju bersih kat FB duk maki2 org2 politik.. ok.. camni! terapkan dlm hati diri masing2 bahawa yg pergi perhimpunan itu, bkan sume yg betul2 dgn niat utk mempertahankan BERSIH dan lain2.. ada jgak yg masih x paham ape BERSIH ni sebenarnye .. tapi ade jgak yg dtg sbb SUKA2.. ad yg dtg utk amik kesempatan.. sbb itu jadi perkara yg bkan2 .. Think wisely ~

tapi papepun.. jgn sekali kali men lepas je kat mane2 social network mcm facebook ke ape ke.. luahkan yg bkan2.. kaji dulu.. amik pendapat org len.. paham pemerintahan negara dahulu.. yg penting hubungan dgn tuhan jgn lupa.. aq post bnde2 camni bkan nak mnyokong pihak BERSIH or Politik.. tapi aq akan memihak pada mana pihak yg betul2 utamakn rakyat dan pemerintahan dan mnjalankan tanggungjawab dgn amanah.. baru lah negara akan bertambah maju.. smpai bile nak duduk kat bawah ketiak negara laen.. renung2kan.. think wisely before act.. insyaAllah agar aman dunia ini dgn pasti melalui izin Allah.. amin~

L4U

how am i suppose to wait for you if u want to disapoint me ?  come on . u know how i felt about you . when i said i like this and that about other girl, u think im really meant it ? i always have faith in you that u will come back to me . but when im trying , not a single chance u gave back at me . like i said , i gonna wait for you . and i keep my word . if im ready to accept who you are , why shudnt you do the same . after we broke up , i feel very lonely . everyday everytime i thinkin bout you.. and i try to txt you.. but u seem dont like to be txt with me . yes, i dont know how you feel exactly . i like everybody but i do love you . and not everbody get my love like u . please , u can make the decision . im very happy when u said you afraid to lose me but you dont want other girl to replace ur place . the truth is, i also felt the same . i never faithfully being with other girl but with you , i do . i always wait for ur answer everytime . until now , my heart didnt changed how i felt about you . before its too late , we have to move on.. go with the flow . but its never too late..

Sincerely by.

Caien